sick on vacation.

We are in Utah. 

The first day I skied.

The second and third day I was sick and so I did not. (insert very sad face)

On the up side, I have made some serious movement on wedding plans. 

And on an even more up side than that, tonight at 6:30 we will be under 100 days. 

Double digits everyone, double digits. 

Love is not love.

With the big supreme court hearing today and all the controversial talk I am seeing on my facebook page I decided to give my two cents.

I would first like to say that this is not a bash against homosexuals, nor do I hate gay people. Quite honestly this post isn't even really about "marriage" between two men or two women. 

While reading the never ending post about why gay "marriage" should be legalized or why it shouldn't I found a very common response, and majority of the time from someone that is around my age. 

"Love is love."

If I read this once I read it twenty times. 

But sadly, that is where they are wrong. 

Love is not love. At least not the definition that they believe it to be. 

My generation has been brainwashed with love whatever, whoever, and whenever. It doesn't matter as long as you feel it. As long as that wonderful bliss is there you are in love. 

We love ice cream, and we love our dog. We love Iphones, and we love Target. We love movies, and we love shopping. We love football, and we love rollercoasters. 

Then we say, we love God. We love our family. We love our boyfriend/girlfriend/fiance/husband/wife'etc.

Basically we put all these things into one finite category and leave at that. 

Since when have we really sat back and thought about what love truly means. 

Millions of people have tried to put a definition on love, and although I can not put it into words myself I have given it some thought. And I do know that love is NOT what my generation has so loosely made it. 

I do know that it IS perfectly demonstrated by Christ and that if we are ever going to possess real love we first have to possess Christ in our life. And I don't mean "possess" by going to church and being a good person, I mean that we must be filled with the Holy Spirit and continuously be following his direction. 

Love cannot be a feeling, although it brings emotions when experienced, because we are commanded by God to love. It does not come easy, but I think that that is what is so beautiful about it. When I think about J and my relationship I "feel" more loved knowing that he has to put effort into loving me and that it doesn't just come naturally to him. I think that if it came naturally then it wouldn't be as near a big deal as it truly is. 

I also think that when people read "the greatest of these is charity (love)" we give little thought to how much it must really amount to. God said that between faith, hope, and love, love prevailed. So I am SURE that love has to be more than what the world claims it to be. 

So, love is not love. 

At least not the definition you are basing this statement off of. 

1 Corinthians 13. 4-13 

⁴ Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,⁵ Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;⁶ Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;⁷ Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.⁸ Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.⁹ For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.¹⁰ But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.¹¹ When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.¹² For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.¹³ And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.

2013.

things to do in 2013.

1. get married.
obviously.

2. scuba certification.
finally.

3. scuba dive.
yay.

4. The Color Run.
this will indeed be my first 5k.
unless you count the one I did at the Naval Academy.
which was anything buy happy.

5. move.
into my very own house!
and Josh's of course.

6. make sushi.
because it is so expensive to buy.

7. join a book club.
and read a book every month.

8. get the possible etsy shop up and running.
almost there.
it may actually make a profit.
maybe.

9. play matchmaker.
because it is fun.

10. get married.
did I mention this already?

unlikely

sometimes God meets with you in the most unlikely places. 

in the most unlikely mindset. 

and with the most unlikely people. 

what a Merry Christmas this was indeed. 

he is,

let me just tell you something.

I was at a point where I didn't want a person and I was satisfied with being alone for... for ever.
and then this annoyingly cute state trooper shows up and decides it will be okay to make me fall head over heels for him.

so I fell.
hard.

and well here we are.

but let me just tell you something else.
he is good.
he is smart.
he is handsome.
he has the prettiest blue eyes you have ever ever seen.
he is brave.
he is absolutely hilarious.
he is going to be a wonderful person to spend forever with.
he is paranoid... and it kinda makes me smile. (don't tell him that)
he is kind.
he is oh so very patient.
he is thoughtful.
he is mine.

and he is more than I was ever looking for.

new things.

so there are some things lately I have noticed that I like that I used to not be a big fan of.

1. polka dots.
I used to hate them, & now I love them.
it all started in may when my mom brought me a j.crew polka dot skirt.
I was instantly in love.

2. lipstick.
also I used to hate, & now love.
it started with a costume where I wore some red lipstick and J couldn't say enough about it.
so today I bought two new colors (that were really cheap but great quality, thanks meglivingston)
both are wet and wild and one is called "birthday suit" (scandalous I know) and the other is dark pink pearl (boring name, great color)

3. fall.
most people found it hilarious that I autumn was my second least favorite season.
but I don't like cold.
but this time around I like the new boots, cozy sweaters, and an excuse to cuddle.

happy thursday everybody.

tis the season.

today we went Christmas shopping. 

it made me way too excited for Christmas. 

yay. 

let's celebrate.